Yes, I'm bored with homeworks and assignments. I didn't know it was so "no-life" to me. Pathetic enough, this year was the most epic year of my life. Not. The main problem lies with my time and stress management. Feeling frustrated about practice papers? Not that much. Feeling desperate for help? Yes I am and I badly need it.

I wish I was smarter in all ways. I thoroughly feel bad about myself and I know the rest of my classmates isn't that stress out. Because they were either very smart or can't be bothered. I totally hate it when I belong to the middle category. Now I kinda understand the positive effect of having tuition teachers. They help you with everything, so no worries if you've got things that you don't understand, they're there all the time. For my case, everything is different. I'm depending on myself and I know it's hard as I always gone desperate for help.

Don't ever say I am demoralizing myself. It's the fact that I don't always know every single thing on earth and I feel bad about it. Sometimes I just think that people who want to cheer those who did badly for preliminary exams, don't ever tell them that "the exam was meant to demoralize you". I guarantee ninety percent of them will never work hard in life and that's how they live on earth.